Piece by piece

"Piece by piece I feel far from the tree

I will never leave her like you left me

And she will never have to wonder her worth

Because unlike you, I'm going to put her first"

Someone told me cruelly that I will have a baby with another man, not my husband, the same situation as me, having a brother from another mom. Yeah, for me, it's fcuking cruel. 

Maybe you are laughing at me and thinking that I am deserved that. But do you know that no one is deserved the pain that they cannot even react and raise their voice to fix it. I may not be a good person enough for you, but I am trying to do my best in anything as possible. I also strongly believe that I will be a good mum to my children, no matter who is their dad.

Family is a sparkling word that I fell respectfully so much whenever I think about it, or see how happy my friends' families are. Cannot say that I don't feel jealous, honestly I do. That's why I have never made jokes or said a single cruel thing about anyone's family and parents. Everything has its roots. And don't judge a situation you have never been in. I don't hate you for that, you just don't understand. Eventually, I understand that life experience can be earned only by our owns, not completely through books, movies or columns on magazines.

So yeah, it's just too sad today at the first time listening to this song and thinking about what just happened, so that I have to write down some words. For myself more than anyone else. Thanks Kelly Clarkson for this beautiful song. I embraced myself by a sunny cozy afternoon listening to this song and now feel so peaceful.